For those of you who aren't aware I suffer from anxiety. The type of anxiety that at times holds me back from living the life I want, which is pretty devastating. To this day, I continue to learn and understand my anxiety, and it has been one of the most difficult personal challenges I've ever experienced. You can read more about my first experience and how I was diagnosed with an anxiety/panic disorder here.
Over a year ago I shared my first experience and how I controlled my anxiety on a daily basis. I figured this is the perfect opportunity to share an update on how the heck I'm doing. Every day is a new day. Some days are better or worse than others, but I'm doing quite well thank you. No, but really, a lot has changed from how I use to control my anxiety. For starters, I feel it's important to share one of the symptoms my anxiety brings on is nausea. Even though I've never actually gotten sick, I got smart and started carrying a plastic bag in my handbag. It sounds crazy I know but think of it this way, if my anxiety hits, and I feel like getting sick, I begin thinking everyone around me will see me physically get sick. The thoughts begin; where will I get sick, is there a bathroom close by, what will people do when they see me get sick, and so on. Basically, the thoughts increase the anxiety. I begin to over think and that, unfortunately, isn't something I can control when my anxiety arises, however having the plastic bag physically on me, close to me, available at all times, calms my thoughts, and my fear can begin to slow down. Initially, I was prescribed a medication to help control my nausea and frankly it would take too long to kick into my system. Later I was introduced by a friend a medicine called Nauzene. Nauzene Chewable Tablets for upset stomach and nausea is far less expensive and is available over the counter. It also kicks in a lot sooner, probably about four to five minutes, and therefore I did not refill the prescribed medication come time for renewal.
Another huge improvement, I also didn't refill my prescription to help the symptoms of my anxiety. I realized over time taking the prescription drug, which was Xanax by the way, took away my personality, and I didn't like the way they made me feel. I found myself not connecting to my job, my family, my boyfriend at the time, my friends, nothing interested me anymore. It became a realization that that in itself, could have caused some depression to creep back into my life, without me even knowing it was happening. Some of you may find this to be something that is known, and some of you who are new to learning more about who I am are about to learn that I have been using medical cannabis to ease and briefly cure my anxiety symptoms. Just your typical Seattle pothead transfer? Not so much, and hey, let's kick the stigma. Take a moment a read two words, medical cannabis. In the cannabis industry, cannabis is commonly referred to as flower, which is a real statement. Cannabis is a flowering plant, and every flower has it's own beauty. The beauty I see in cannabis is the medical benefits it provides me and my daily health struggles. I personally have used cannabis for years, on and off since I believe the summer before high school. However, I never knew or understood I was using it for medical purposes. Ok, yes I used it recreationally with friends, and still do from time to time, but when not hanging out and partying, I realized it did more than making me feel good, it helped control my anxiety, in a healthy manner. It also relieved the shoulder pain I experience on a daily basis due to pushing my limits as an early athlete and a past car accident.
One day I decided to start decreasing my intake of Xanax and solely use cannabis, and over time my personality started coming back. Weird, I know. I gained interest in my life again and can say I'm a firm believer that smoking flower is more natural and healthy than taking prescription drugs. Tetrahydrocannabinol (THC) is natural and healthy, and it's something I enjoy more than taking pills. With more education on my part, I learned about CO2 oil that contains THC, which is also a healthy choice of medicating. CO2 oil is healthy because it has been processed and refined so it results in a smoother intake. Some find that smoking raw flower can be harsh and at times take them too high, sometimes too fast. Every individual is different and may experience different effects. CO2 oil is a concentrated form of cannabis and comes in a few different ways. I now prefer using disposable vaporizer pens that contain CO2 oil because when I'm done using them, I can easily toss away. They're discreet compared to how loud flower can be with its smell, the equipment needed, and I can control my intake more cautiously. I find the disposable pens to be very convenient for those like me who suffer from anxiety.
I'd also like to take this opportunity to share that I take cannabidiol on a daily basis in the morning and sometimes at night. Cannabidiol (CBD) is a cannabis compound that has a variety of medical benefits and is the non-psychoactive part of the cannabis plant. It eliminates the high effect and feeling. It's beneficial for those who suffer from anxiety, muscle spasms, body aches and pains, seizures, etc. Cannabidiol is also counteractive and therefore, should you become too high off of THC, which is the chemical compound in cannabis responsible for the high, the cannabidiol will bring you down from your high.
There are many types of anxiety disorders, and therefore I do recommend advising with your doctor before making any drastic lifestyle changes. The help is out there for a reason so don't be afraid to ask or seek help. However, keep in mind that most doctors will want to prescribe medication, and prescription medication isn't the only option available. I'm beyond thankful I found new and healthier ways to medicate and help control my anxiety. With having shared an update of how I'm coping and how I medicate, I'll be sharing more in-depth details relating to the cannabis industry throughout my blog. More and more education and science are coming out daily regarding medical cannabis, and I'm the perfect patient to share the information as it comes to my attention. It's possible to live the happy and healthy lifestyle you want while living with anxiety. Do what's best for you, even if new methods may seem silly or weird. If it works for you, continue. We all deserve to live a happy and healthy lifestyle.